Today I figured out what makes me really, really angry at work: it is when people assume I don't know what I'm talking about.
On the plus side, now that I know what it is, I can try to come up with strategies for how not to get angry when it happens.
On the negative side, given my gender and choice of career, this happens rather a lot.
And as we discussed in the comments on my post about Lean In, I'm not really allowed to get angry at work.
Also, I sure wish I'd figured this out before I almost lost my cool in a meeting about furniture. Now I have to go clean that up tomorrow- after all, there is no way that guy knew I read about productivity for fun and wasn't just pulling opinions on workspace arrangement out of thin air.
Furthermore, since people assuming I don't know what I'm talking about does happen a lot, I need to figure out why sometimes it makes me so mad that I have to leave a meeting and sometimes I can laugh it off. Every time I've been really angry at work, it has been because someone is assuming I don't know my stuff. But I don't get mad every time someone assumes I don't know my stuff, because if I did I'd walk around angry a lot.
I suspect that part of the problem today was, as the Onion so succinctly put it: Jesus, This Week.
So really, I'm grateful that my biggest problem right now is figuring out how to recover from this burst of anger (only partially displayed, thankfully).
And my mood has been much improved by an extended game of tag after dinner, and the fact that Pumpkin is teaching Petunia the song from The Tiki Room in the bath right now.
Oh, and they just started singing It's a Small World.
I can't complain.
How are you all holding up this week?